It is her new music release after a long spell of 18 years. But for singer Suchitra Krishnamoorthi, ‘Sawan Barse’ is more like a homecoming as she returns to her career as an independent music artiste.
“The last time I was promoting a single, I was pregnant with my daughter Kaveri,” laughs Suchitra, as we curl up for a chat in her cosy home in Andheri in suburban Mumbai. “Her little teenage friends now seem surprised to discover that I sing, and I and I have to remind them that I am where she got her talent from, after all!” She attributes the long gap to her desire to play a full-time mom to Kaveri (whom she had with film-maker Shekhar Kapur).
So everything that Suchitra did — from making aromatic candles to painting galore to writing a book to dabbling in theatre came secondary as the pursuits were worked around Kaveri’s schedule. “I was not even comfortable leaving her and going out of Mumbai on work, though my parents chipped in aplenty and came over to stay with her,” confesses Suchitra. She experienced a big emotional blow when her sister passed away earlier this year. “I felt I had lost my voice and my confidence completely over the last few years,” she admits. “I never thought I would be able to sing again. It was a psychological block — call it an emotional voice paralysis. Technically and medically, my vocal chords were in tact, but yet, I just could not bring myself to sing. When people would ask me to sing, I would start suffering from severe anxiety, as if there was a noose being tightened around my neck, and then I would gradually start avoiding putting myself in such situations completely.” A far cry from the chirpy girl she played in the blockbuster Kabhi Haa Kabhi Naa
Shilpi Madan for Sunday Herald